a heart leaks color

summer tans are awesome…, originally uploaded by for the love of photography.

good news: i have an A in both my speech and english classes

bad news: my child psych teacher is virtually failing all of us, so i’ll have to take the class again next semester.

good news: winter break is coming soon

bad news: i don’t know if i want to be in school right now, so i’m battling with that at the moment.

good news: i get to go to seattle soon

bad news: i still have yet to find a semi-consistent baby watching job

good news: i have KIND OF started to enjoy subbing soy for dairy

bad news: my tummy REALLY hates dairy now and there is no way around it

good news: i have a ton of new and awesome music

bad news: i spend almost my entire stipend on it each time

good news: working for krochet kids is INCREDIBLE

bad news: i spend a lot of moolah on gas (my parents care more than i do… haha…. cuz i don’t care at all)

good news: i’m so excited to see people this break

bad news: there is no bad news with that

good news: the holidays are here! i love the entire ambiance that comes with it.

bad news: none.

good news: as much as i love my cousin, she’s a bit of a tramp and IS NOT coming out to visit this holiday season

bad news: as trampy as she is, she’s still fun and i miss her.

good news: i love you. a lot!!!

bad news: uhm. there is none with that. haha.

mmmm <3
muah.

let’s spend time together over my break.
lawd only knows how much time i have!
and p.s. i’m not buying anyone presents.
HOWEVER, i will dedicate a whole day
(at the very LEAST) of time to spend with
you…and just you…. because i want to
invest in you and show you how much i care.
so, your presence is a gift to me, and i hope
the same to you. plus, i’ll most likely treat
you to coffee or tea or lunch or dinner or
whatever. we’ll go on a little “date” or something.
haha.

ohmylanta.

i’m so incredibly happy.
lovelovelove you.

I just want to lay on the floor
and listen to death cab.
I just want to lay there and
talk about life.
all things silly and serious,
random and common.
I want to enjoy your company…
because to me, that’s the best.

Krochet Kids International, originally uploaded by cheeevs.

volunteering makes my heart happy
and my world go round.

<3

i love nonprofits.
so so much.
i’m partial to ones that
assist in Uganda
(mostly since i’ve
been there)
but i love the work
people do.

i will say that i am not
fully a fan of nonprofits
that give free handouts
all the time (i like when
people learn how to
self-sustain) but yea.

volunteering makes my
heart happy, makes my
world go round.
and round.
and round.

i need to stop babbling
and go to sleep.

i have a long day in anaheim tomorrow.

Hiding, originally uploaded by .delila..

fool me once, shame on you.
fool me twice, shame on me.

mm.

feign interest in me…
then flirt with my friend.

uhm.
i’m not a fan.

i give up.
i will not
be burned
again.
kthnx.

a hug is all what we need, originally uploaded by ajpscs.

i’d like to walk around with a sign like this
someday…

to see what happens
and to see who would take me up
on it.

so yesterday I got a huge
reminder as to why I don’t
ever really date.

yup.
oh hey, single life.
you look so good!
never make me feel like a
bad person for making an
adult decision or even feel
inaqequate of trust.
you know i’m trustworthy and
do things for the benefit of
everyone else before I even
think of making a decision for
myself.

hey, single life…
we are gonna be pretty darn
cozy for a while.

tall latte – view 3, originally uploaded by tonx.

&enjoy the single life.
short lived, you say?
i have my reasons.
head always wins over heart..
for me at least.

i’ll sip on this beverage
the flavor and texture being
the only consistent thing in
life.

the one constant i can count
on other than my love, my God.

everything i endure is a learning
experience. i got to feel first hand
what it was like to be in a relationship
that wasn’t God-centered and didn’t
honor Him.

oh i felt it.

i’d get sick. physically.
weird, you know?
oh well. i feel fine, now.

so i’ll enjoy this life
and watch the season pass
by.

and enjoy this one constant
and i purse my lips to slurp
up some of this creamy, sweet,
and spicy drink. i’ll feel its warmth
as it slowly goes down and let
the flavor linger on my tongue
for a second or two.

then i’ll think for a second and
remember what i blessed life
i have and how good God is
and how great it is to honor Him.

then i’ll smile at the day.
this day that God made
and remember that all is
good in Him.
and that even beyond this
chai latte, He will be the constant
that is ongoing and never changing.
and will be even after I’ve joined Him
in His kingdom.

get the flock outta here, originally uploaded by hedonaut.

dear XY chromosome-d losers,

use your balls and be a man.
own up to your actions, your
thoughts, your feelings…
don’t make me call you out
on things anymore.
i get tired of you having a
vagina and getting all
overly emotional about things
just because i choose to live
my life and make decisions
that somehow manage to affect
you.

i’m the girl. i have the vagina.
let me be the one to be emotional.
so man up.
if you’ve got feelings, spill it.
issues? spill it.
a conflict? spill it.
be a big boy. have a conversation
with me. talk it out.

you’d be severely shocked
as to how opening up your
mouth and forming sentences
stating your opinions, thoughts,
and feelings can be.

you all are driving me crazy.
don’t be 5 years old anymore
and force me to have to practically
pull teeth to get you to say what
you think or feel. it makes me feel
like i need to ask you if you have
to go potty or something.

oh.
mylanta.
srsly.
i’m over it.

((if you miss the boat, you miss the boat.
you’ve got no one to blame but yourself.))

I am missing
the single life.

don’t know if
dating is right
for me right now?

or am I psyching
myself out and
running away?

blegh.